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Weds 24th October - Lifes Cruelty Part 2

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Posted by: knightrider45 Wednesday 24th October 2007, 3:51pm

Wow! Thanks for all your replies guys - Obviously, I'm not the only one feeling like this, and that, in itself, is a massive bonus!

But, did the blog really come across as self pity? It wasn't meant to, by any count. I don't do self pity, ever. Gosh Letty, it takes a woman to see things sometimes doesn't it?

But I still don't see it as self pity. Rather, it's anger, or perhaps, at best, frustration. I want to do so much with my life but I can't because stability, security and responsibility keep getting in the way.

Maybe it's this man's midlife crisis thing they keep talking about.

Stickgman - thanks for replying - if I was single I'd do the same thing as you- you must have a fantastic, free life, well done for taking that initial, brave decision. You are the ideal person to start a blog - there are hundreds of us out here who would love to read your adventures in a life full of freedom, a life that only a very few of us get to touch, let alone live. How's about it mate, would you share your life with us please?

Stickgman's right though isn't he? Live your life for yourself, no one else. All I want out of life is to be able to look after my family, pay the bills, an emergency cash reserve in the bank in case things go wrong, say a thousand, and to be able to run my business full time, from home. Because that, to me, would be my perfect life.

Living my life. Instead of spending most of days being forced to do what I have to do. And what I don't want to do.

Part of my problem stems from finding my dad dead on the settee at 15 - this hammered home, with great force, that time is short. And should not be wasted. And I cannot get over this - not that I really want to I think - this is my motivation.

And finally, Waterside Skincare. What you say is exactly the motivation I need. I believe in the Law Of Attraction (Written about it here before) - so we're both on the same lines here. Unfortunuately, finances won't permit life coaching sessions, so I've got to do this on my own.

I have a collection of over 10,000 psychology books on DVD and CD's - that's how much I'm into this. I'll look out for those titles you suggest, but in the meantime, do you know if they're widely available in paperback? Or from the library? I promise I will definately try both of them - if I can find them - if they've worked for you, then, hopefully, they'll do the same for me. There's nothing like personal recommendation that somethings good, is there?

Deb, you have taken that decision and living the life I want to live. Congratulations and every best wish for the future.

But I do have a plan. And that's to get enough money to pay all the bills for a year in the bank, somehow. That will be through the business I'm re-starting up. As soon as I get somewhere close, even with more finance, I'll leave my job the next day.

Because that 12 months money will give the family the security they need, for 12 months. Then I'll live MY life, and then, even if the business doesn't take off, I'd have tried.

Because I'd rather leave this life saying "I'm glad I did" instead of "I wish I had". I hope that doesn't sound selfish.

Thanks for your time guys, you're brilliant, listening to this middle aged man in his mid life crisis!

Paul

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